1. The family picture fiasco. It was the first time I have ever had a negative physical reaction (tearing up) to seeing myself. It was a knee-jerk, first impulse reaction. I FELT really bad.
2. I think you might have mentioned this in one of your blogs too, but I just feel different inside. Previous years I would get excited and all hopped up on New Year's "fresh startness". The past couple of years that was also combined with panic and a sense of dread.
3. Me, Pam, and maybe the other sisters, Pam's BF are trying to go to the Dominican Rep. in July. Maybe even mom too. I decided this year since I have vacation time, I will use it for a proper vacay. Pam's BFF (Mimi) knows people and when they went last year, she got an all inclusive (food and drinks) for 150$ for 4 days. Split that with 3 people less than $40 a day and you don't have to worry about buying anything but souvenirs and plane ticket. Last year the plane ticket was like 380. So...if you want and can manage it then you're invited too. All that to say, my butt will be in at least, AT LEAST, a cute one piece this yr. Stretch marks and veins be damned. That's what waterproof body makeup is for. My ultimate hope is that I can manage a bikini.
TOP 3 GOALS FOR 2013: other than weight... but it is -100 lbs.
1. Fitness-I think I want to be certified as a fitness instructor. Now don't get excited. I don't actually want to teach any classes. I just want to have it and maybe do it at home. I don't even know what all that entails, maybe schooling too. If it does then I probably won't attempt it but if it's not something too rigorous, why not? Also, I've been thinking about doing a marathon for like 3 yrs. The lymphoma society has a thing where if you raise $2500 (3yrs ago) they train you, send you to the race (that yr they had one in VA beach, Nashville, New orleans, & out west) and you get a tshirt. They set up a website for you and everything. They gave you time to back out if you didn't think you could raise the ;money by the due date. It's usually towards the end of the year.
2. Completely vain but I want to wear single digit clothing. I was going to say size "8" but I figure shoot big so I'm going to say size "5". So I probably need to change my total weight loss to 120....
3. I've heard people say that losing weight doesn't change the problems you have. But I think that a lot of my problems stem from my weight, mostly. I will always be introverted but the shyness, not being confident in "getting out there and living" is from my weight. I'm not talking only dating, but things like taking voice lessons. I know I'm not a vocalist but it would be fun to learn, I think. Or joining the works kickball team. You know just to try new things. I don't want to be 80 and say, I had the opportunity to do (blank) but I was too self conscious or embarrassed etc.
4. BONUS*-The plant isn't doing well and Jan is the make or break month. I'm not sure what's going to happen but if a lay off does. I think I'm safe for a little bit bc I can always go back to wax. My personal hell. I would really be looking to work elsewhere and here recently there have been so many articles about weight discrimination. Earlier this week they I read about some study they did with differ CEO of million(s) dollar companies 4 or 5. In the study people would rate how effective a CEO was. They kept everything as controllled as possible (same gender, same age range, same credentials, etc) and the only difference was weight. The people who were overweight were rated least effective. Like there was a big gap. I'll take any little advantage should the need arise.
Ok that is it for me. NOW your homework:
Because you have an issue with working out, I'm going to have you do a progressive exercised. Each day doubling the min of exercise you do. I'm not explaining it very well so I'll just lay it out for you. Maybe you can print it as a reminder.
DAY 1: 2 min of exercise. That's it-120 sec of continuous movement. It can be dancing, doing wall push ups, squats, jumping jacks, doing a video, brisk walk. Whatever! I don't care what it is but it must be INTENTIONAL movement for 2 min. Of course you can do more.
DAY 2: 4 min of exercise. Same as above.
DAY 3: 6 min of exercise. Same as above.
DAY 4: 8 min of exercise. Same as above.
DAY 5: 10 min of exercise. Same as above.
DAY 6: 12 min of exercise. Same as above.
DAY 7: 14 min of exercise. Same as above.
BONUS* on DAY 7 in addition to minutes, also do a video that you have at home.
Obviously this is more to get you in the habit of moving and setting aside time for it. Hopefully once you get started you can keep it up. There isn't a need for rest day. YOU can do this!
Ok gotta wrap it up...off to do my other online crap!
Okay, this is one of your best blog entries ever. I'm so excited! This is the year, SERIOUSLY! How cool is that?? The vacation/bikini thing is awesome, and I feel you on the swimsuit. I won't get overzealous on the fitness instructor thing, but for what it's worth I think you WOULD be an excellent class teacher. Completely empathize with everything you said about putting off living life due to weight. It really does affect everything! And my homework is perfect, I love you. I'm going to purposely stick to the exact minutes, even if I feel myself getting into it. That might be another psychological trick to make myself actually be disappointed to STOP exercising, and get excited to ramp it up the next day!
ReplyDeleteAwesome awesome awesome blog entry!!! <3
Seriously! I did print it out, but not just for my homework :)
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