Self control? Weather and Other.

Well, I guess I do have some kind of self control. Or maybe this lifestyle thing is really starting to click (somehwhat)....let me know what you think.

So this is the list of my food from yesterday:

Breakfast: 1.5c of blackeyed peas with spicy tomato sauce

Lunch: 1c blackeyed peas, 1 turkey sand on wheat with cheese, lettuce, tom, and 1 tsp of miracle whip and 2 pickles. Then here's where it gets bad...2 bowls of cereal (skim milk of course *wink,wink*) one was honey nut cheerios and the other was generic corn pops. Well, not too bad you say? That's not all. I did pretty bad but also kinda pat myself on the back. My sister bought these "kitchen sink" cookies ( an oatmeal raisin chocolate(white and reg),butterscotch chip, coconut cookie) a week ago. There were 8 cookies with 5 other people in the house...I figured they would be gone by now. But nooooo. There it was, one lonely cookie calling me. Nay... entreating me to eat it. And of course, how could I resist? So I ate, but only half. Yay, except that the other half is still here. *sigh* I'm still not done though. I could feel myself starting to spiral out of control as I went for the cheese puffs. It was another sister responsible this time (supposedly for Mav). Back to the cheese puffs, you know the real kind with with the tiger. I love those things. I was about to, Get. It. In. Then, by some inhuman strength of self control I ate 4 cheese puffs. That's right, 4. If that was all I ate for the day, then it wouldn't be so bad. I still had 2 breaks to get through. I didn't eat on the 1st but did eat a snack on the 2nd. Along with numerous sugar free hard candy bc my throat was so scratchy and I forgot my cough drops.

Snack: passion fruit chobani, apple, orange

Dinner: Spicy chicken with potatoes-about 1cup of potatoes and 1/2c chicken

I ate dinner when I got home. The use the term dinner loosely since any of the 3 previous meals could have been dinner.

Anyhow, that' s where my day ended.

Today is a new day and it started out well. I got up at 5 this morning so I could get some cardio in before the powercut class. 20 min on the elliptical ,extra time, woot! Then I had salsa chicken in a low carb wrap(2) with laughing cow cheese. And an orange.

I'm trying to hold off, I kinda stil want something to eat. Oh and the weather here stinks. I want my winter! It's supposed to 66 degrees and sunny today. Tomorrow it gonna be 70. And low 60s the rest of the week. This is why I keep getting sick. I need my cold weather until April . I need to be able to wear my "cover up clothes" until I lose some more weight. At this rate people will be in their swimsuits by mid Feb.

Also, totally have been thinking about my charts but haven't actually done anything yet. The procrastinator in me. Well apparently, I'm chatty cathy today. I guess that's it unless I somehow think of something before work. I'm off to the shower and then get some sleep.

Weigh in..Yay?!

Hey sorry, I had a rough night. It started out with the sore throat during the day. I think it's a sinus infection bc all night stuff kept draining and I could taste the infection. I couldn't sleep bc it would also cause me to cough everytime I lay flat. I went to be at midnight, saw 230am and then 430 am and then I must have dozed off bc I woke up to my workout alarm at 515am. So I'd been up all night and still went to go workout but I have all these qpons that are about to expire so I decided to get that out of the way but before I left I jumped on the scale and ....

I lost 4 lbs! Can you believe it? I was surprised because I was totally counting on a gain. I had my light jeans on and tshirt and hadn't eaten yet to be extra careful and it worked out. Whatever, I'll take it. I guess the moral of the story is to quit cheating on weighing in. I used to never check early. Also, what if I had went on that binge bc of my early weigh in? Then I probably definately would have had a gain. So lesson learned for me.

Here's my stats: (all nice and neat)

My runninging total:

1/9 263.6

1/16 262.0 -1.6

1/23 258.4 -3.6 Woot!

1/30 254.4 -4.0 Yay!

That's actually exactly 11 lbs since I have been working out consistently since 9/36/11 with original weight 265.4. I actually hit 254.4 way back on 11/21/11. Then I went up steadily through the holidays to the new starting point on 1/9.

Anyways eating pretty good so far...I'm taking 2 hrs to relax before I have to in. I should actually be leaving for work now but I am way too tired. Ok, off I go.

Total Meltdown Averted

Jan 29, 2012 Sun

Ok so I kinda had a meltdown earlier. I got up in the morning, before breakfast and decided to do a sneak peak on my weigh in for tomorrow. I thought I ate pretty good most of the week and I worked out in some very hard classes everyday this week. Unfortunately it's not going to show this weigh in on MON. I had gained 0.5lbs. *SIGH* Now I know my body is very stubborn about giving up the weight loss but this week was 80% good and I still had a gain! It was very demoralizing, I ate my salsa crock pot chicken with smart pasta and then I decided to have 2 big bowls of honey nut cheerios (it was with skim milk though). Totally not ice cream but....that's when I texted you because I felt I could do some more damage.

After the text, I decided I was going to take a nap. Consequently missing all your texts to get moving. I woke up at 230pm, read all your texts (thank you very much) and carried my butt to a walking trail. No it wasn't hard core but I did a brisk pace for 55min. We'll check it out when you come. I just had my Mp3 and was walking and relaxing. At 55 degrees with sun shining, it was just a perfect day to walk and think. It helped with my perspective and I went to library as a reward for doing something. :)

I really wanted a big loss but even if I had lost just one pound it would've been better for me. I don't want to have to measure everything and be so strict with my diet this early on. I wanted to wait until I got to that last 20 or 10lbs bc I know I can't keep that up the whole duration. I thought, if I keep in mind to eat healthy most of the time and still lose then I would be ok even with a small loss. But I can't keep doing it, if it is going to result in gains. So I'm rethinking eating strategy.

Oh Well.

Yeah, and your homework is to do charts too. Uninspiring, I know but wait til next week.I have to come up with something. Ok until next time.

Friday and Saturday

So Friday I did my RIPPED class and then did an extra 30 min on the elliptical after! However I over did it with the eating. I was fine all day until I came home. My sister once again made food that wasn't necessarily bad but it wasn't good for my health either. I ate some white potatoes and white rice with and had seconds and thirds. I also ate some extra beef jerky. Not terrible like fast food but if I don't lose weight I know I am at least gonna have to start measuring out portions.

Saturday I did my powercut class and again did an other 30 min on the elliptical. I ate probably like 4 oz of beef jerky (1oz is a serving) and then I again ate some white potatoes with chicken. I was probably 1/2 to 3/4c of white potatoes. That was for breakfast this morning.

I have to work tonight 5p-10p OT. So I won't be too bad at work but between now and then might be a problem. Of course when I came home from the gym my other sister had bought 2 different kinds of pizza from Wal Mart. They both smell delicious. I am hoping to take a shower and talk to my motivator (you) and maybe have one slice of eat type of pizza along with a huge salad. That way I won't gorge on the wrong thing and still eat semi healthy.

I feel good about this week...I am hoping the scale will be kind. My plan is to still work out tomorrow (RIPPED class again) and be super good on the eating until weigh in on MON.

B

Ok for Yesterday

Ok the day started off well but around noon when I would normally be sleeping I got really hungry. I didn't go off by a lot but it's a slippery slope I don't want to go near. My usual day goes like this workout, breakfast, nap or errands, work, eat at 430 and 730, home, sleep. Yesterday it was

workout, breakfast, eat again (sandwich, cereal, 4 cookies), nap, work, eat 430 and 730, home , eat again (fish this time), sleep.

So alot of extra eating going on but it could have been alot worse. I'm trying to curb that but I already ate breakfast and I'm still really hungry. I did my powercut workout today and had the stew I made for breakfast. I'm thinking of getting some fruit to snack on when I get hungry. That will get me out of the house and away from the food. There is some dried fruit here...but that has so much more sugar than regular fruit.

I guess that's it. My hope is for a big weight loss this week to where I can get my first reward. Hmmm...I usually don't peek at all on the scale from one week to the next. But I think I'll do it now to see where I am at. Well crap..1 lb up but I did just eat and I have my heavy sweats on. I still have 3 days before weigh in.

Homework done!

That's right! I did a workout called R.I.P.P.E.D. It was hard...basically interval training. High level of cardio interspersed with weights. I am now going to eat some of my stew. But yesterday I ended the day well. My eating was in check.

So My reward system is as such:

Starting weight: 265

-15lbs lost= 250 manicure, pedicure, and waxing (it is not a necessity and its stuff i can do myself if I don't make the weight loss)

-25lbs lost= 240 Hunger games book trilogy

-35lbs= 230 facial cleansing system (proactiv, clinique)

-45lbs= 220 hair cut with my stylist Liz

-55lbs= 210 2 music cds (not sure which ones yet)

-65lbs= 200 good perfume (estee lauder pleasures)

At 200 lb mark I will reeevaluate and make new reward system. I don't want to get to far ahead because who knows what might motivate me then? Alright I guess that's it for now.

Not yet

Well I haven't done my rewards thing yet. But then I rememberede it's homework for the week. I will think some more but will definately get it in before the deadline.

I did workout today, 6am powercut! i had a healthy serving of a stew I made last night beans, kale, pork loin etc. And of course, lots of water. Still good but when I think of all the work I have to do I get impatient, restless. Today after powercut I thought about doing another30min to 1 hr on the elliptical. I can kinda feel my obsession with working out coming back. This is GOOD, but I don't want to do too much too fast. So if in another week I am still having those thoughts, I will give in. It can only help right.

Anyway so far so good. I have to get my stuff ready for work.

Weigh in, etc

My runninging total:

1/9 263.6

1/16 262.0 -1.6

1/23 258.4 -3.6 Woot!

I did not get up at 530am, but I did make it to the gym at 645am and worked out an hour. What...what! Then I had 1/3c of steel cut oats and 2 pieces of turkey bacon and 4 cups of water so far. I'm on my way.

I'm gonna get ready for work then I might start working on my weight loss charts and things! Starting this week on a high!

Sunday!!

Ok, I totally didn't do anything as far as workouts but I have been eating pretty good. God most of my housework done. And now I can concentrate on food and workout for tomorrow. I don't know if I will do anything with the charts just yet but we'll see.

Ok, now for the homework. Make a motivation board for exercise. Find at least one picture of a person who have the type of body you want and post them on a motivation board. If you know how to post it on here so I can see or on your facebook.

OK, still waiting for my homework!

In a nutshell +20

In a nutshell, I got off to a good start. I started second shift this week. On Monday, we had off because it was Martin Luther King day. So that morning at 600 am i worked out on the elliptical for 30 min. The eating was ok but I had decided bc I would have to figure out how my eating habits would change with being on second. Then on Tuesday I went to powercut class at 6-7am. Came home got all my stuff ready, went to work from 2-10pm. Everything including my food was good. But that night, I could get to sleep when I came home. I stayed up until 4am, then slept til 1230, took a shower and went to work. And that pretty much was my schedule for the rest of the week. I couldn't get to sleep early enough to get up early enough to work out. I threw whatever I could together when I left for my 2 breaks to eat. My eating was ok though. So literally this whole week I haven't been on the internet or done anything else. Just sleep, eat, work.

My new plan before this sleeping thing becomes a habit (if it hasn't already), I will try to got to bed by 1130pm. That will give me 6hrs before I have to get up to workout at 6am. Every morning during the week. Be home by 730am and get ready for work. I will eat before I get to work. Then I'll eat at 430 and 730, my 2 breaks. And start the cycle all over again. I did start my LT this week. This weekend I will put everything in position to make this successful. Ok on to finish my 20.

20 Things( which is alot, btw): Reasons to Lose Weight

1. Once in my life be normal size.

2. Buy clothes off the rack and know they fit.

3. So I can take decent pictures.

4. Don't have to work so hard to put on my shoes.

5. Stay healthy, bc while I don't have any health problems now. They will come if I don't do something.

6. I know they say being thin doesn't solve the inner stuff but I think in my case it will. I will be more confident.

7. I want to feel good about myself.

8. I will look better.

9. People will look at me bc I am "hot" not bc I am big.

10. I think, when I lose weight, everthing in my personal life will fall into place.

11. Less stress bc one of the biggest stressors is gone.

DANG, this is hard. I am running out things.

12. I think I will be more adventurous. There have been so many times, where I have said, " if I was skinny, I would totally (fill in the blank)."

13. I would save money on the grocery bill.

14. I want to be a success story.

15. I don't want to do the gastric bypass surgery.

16. To prove to myself that I can do this. That my will power is strong enough.

Ok, now I am really thinking hard....you should do this too

17. So far all my exscuses have been superficial, but maybe if I am successful. I can help my sisters achieve this with before they hit my age.

18. If I look for a new job, evidence has suggested that overweight people are more likely not to get jobs, raises etc. They are discriminated against and stereotyped. It's one of the last accepted forms of discrimination.

19. Being fat is holding me back psychologically, emotionally, and physically. I don't know or fully recognize to what extent (glad for that).

20. I am just tired of being fat and everything that it entails.

Ok there it is. Now lets see if this gives me a kick in the butt!

20 Things

Well I guess I get started on my homework. 20 reasons on why I want to lose weight.

1. Once in my life be normal size.

2. Buy clothes off the rack and know they fit.

3. So I can take decent pictures.

4. Don't have to work so hard to put on my shoes.

5. Be healthy.

ok I'm tired of thinking....I'll write some more later but before Sunday. Dang 20 is harder than I thought.

Diet talk plus extra

Ok so I totally was gonna rock it out on MON 1-9. I'm usually good at work because we get 2 breaks at 830-850 and 1130-1150 and its structured plus we can't just eat whenever we want. Its after work that I have to conjure up my mojo to do what I need to do. But my plan afterward was to eat a myoplex bar on the way to the gym and then work out 1 hr. Then go home and eat a healthy dinner.

Unfortunately, that completely did not happen. It just started off as a bad day. I got up late so I had to call in a take an hour but was still 5 min late at 7! So I was supposed to take my test on MON at 730am and it usually lasts 4-6 hours but the the lady had an emergency. So i thought i wasn't going to take the test. She gets back at 11am and asks if I want to take the test. I say sure and take my 2nd break at 11-1130. From 1130-245, I got through 2 of the 3 tests. I am starving and tired. Oh and bc i didn't go grocery shopping (trying to wait until I had all my coupons together) i decided to go through chick fil a drive thru and not workout. On the bright side my I got a 90 and 93 on the tests. I tell myself tomorrow will be better for the weightloss thing. Btw I did weigh myself 263.6, yep a 3.6lb gain and that still didn't motivate me.

TUES 1-10

Not so much. So I'm practicing for the last test at work until she gets me at 8am to do it. It takes about 2 hrs. I'm good at work but again I didn't feel like working out but instead of going home I do a marathon couponing thing and get the food that I need to be healthy. Unfortunately, I didn't cook any of it to be ready for work on wed but at least i got it. I am no longer kidding myself as to think I'm going to start something this late in the week. I'm just trying to get all my ducks in a row.

WED 1-11

So my new plan of attack is to do the super metabolism hike thing the rest of the week. Only meat and veggies-no carbs. The workout I think Ill put off until SUN. If I feel like doing something I will but I just want to start eating real clean. I should be on 2nd shift by MON, then I can workout at 6am. I did make some food for tomorrow so I am on a roll.

As a side note, I got Bob from the biggest loser weight loss starter kit and pills. They range from 19.99-24.99. But with my super couponing I got them for 7.50 plus tax. Woot! Woot!

ok will definately try to better before you have to be all mean to me.

Its Sunday

Ok So my plan for tomorrow is just to eat healthy. No unhealthy fats, white carbs, sugars etc. I also plan on working out but I have my certification test at work tomorrow and some running around to do before i actually can get to it. I still don't know if I pass tomorrow will I stay on first for the rest of the week or go to second on tues. I think if given the choice, I'll just go to second. Why prolong the inevitable plus that will get my booty in gear for the early morning workouts. If I have time I will put the food I've eaten in the Spark foodtracker just to see where I am caloriewise but no promises. OK. Tomorrow's the day. I am not super excited but not completely apathetic either. That quite possibly could be due to the fact that I got my new license with the "oh so flattering pic". Maybe I'll figure out how to post that pic. Anyways, til tomorrow then.

Well..

at least I'm posting cuz that's about all I did right today. I totally did fine until after work (2pm) bc i had my hair appt (4pm) today and I had to leave straight from work to the salon in Williamsburg. My appt didn't get done until 630. So I didn't get home until 7pm. And I totally didn't work out.

I have been lethargic and I have had a headache which I never get. I think it might be nicotine withdrawal. But I totally smoked but thats another story. I'm just gonna chalk this week up to a loss. I know its only WED but I need a weekend to get my food, planning and everything else together without being so tired.

But I did weight in on MON:260 lbs. That's a loss of 1.4lbs during the holidays. ?! Anyways I will call you on FRI to get yelled at and regroup.

Dang

Ok after my initial ...whtever it was i totally crashed. Ate whatever and did not work out. I'm so tired right now. I will do better tomorrow.

Well,

Here's to another year of starting the weight loss thing. My first week is supposed to focus on eating and not so much about working out.

However, I really didn't eat so well. I've been driving since 730pm and it really isn't conducive to healthy eating. I ate some rice cake and had a cheese sandwich on white bread. Those are the bad things so far. I got home at 930am (had to stop for a little nap at the rest stop) but when I got here I went straight to YMCA and workout on the ellipticle for 30min! So yea me for that.

I just wanted to get this off real quick I have to unpack while I'm motivated will come back with a better outline and all that other stuff.